Self fulfilling prophecy-Intro.

Welcome. I dealt with my mother's early onset Alzheimer's since I was 15 years old until she passed in 2006. This is me trying to makes sense of it all and dealing with all of the guilt, emotions, and feelings towards it.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Blog title explaination

I named the blog "Self Fulfilling Prophecy" because I believe that I will have early onset Altzheimers. Those closest to me feel that by prepping myself in this manner really will be enough cause for it to happen. Personally, I would rather prepare for the worst and then be happily surprised. But either way, I could just be self fulfilling my destiny. Who knows. Then the question is, should I go get tested now? Am I prepared for that? Am I ready to have my pre-concieved fate be confirmed or is it scarier to not know what will kill me? I am so damn morbid. . .
Read more

Issues

*Posted in 2009  Thank god I am not having a girl. I have so many issues about being a mother already, so many issues about my mother, and so many issues that have to do with femininity that I think I would totally screw up a sweet little girl's head. Not to say that I guess I won't do that to my sons. . . My mom always used to make this "sock-it-to-me" cake. We sold it in the restaurant so she would make it at least twice a week (and about 8 cakes a day during the holidays as gifts) and the smell would fill the house. It was a small house, so this smell would permiate the sheets, the carpet, everything. When I was little, I loved the smell. It was a warm scent filled with butter. People loved the cake. It was delicious. But as I got older, the warm smell became cloying. It made me choke and gag. I hated the fact that I could not get away from it. I hated the fact that my mother would slave over the oven all the time making this damn cake. This cake symbolized e...
Read more